Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I'm Here


Lately my mind has been a bit crowded and overwhelmed. I find myself getting easily aggravated with the insignificant and irresponsible actions of others. I find that this is not such a healthy way to live life. So as I listen to Clarity by Najee and a light jazz mix, I create the first part of my new mantra for 2008 and 2009.


1.) I will not set expectations on things that I cannot control.

2.) I am here for the present. for it is a gift from God and I will enjoy every moment of it. I will learn from the past and prepare for the future.

And the last part of it:

3.) We can never see past the choices that we do not understand.



This is my new mantra for the remainder of this year and if you don't like it, that's your opinion and you are entitled to it, but please don't expect me to get to the point in my life where your opinion matters so much to me that I am going to give a damn, because if that is your bread and butter, you'll die of starvation before I conform to you and your standards.


I am outta here for now and remember......

"We are all here to do what we are all here to do."

Monday, May 26, 2008

Reflections: From a Minor way, In a Major Key





Stevie wounder once wrote an album entitled, "Songs in the Key of Life." If I were to write an album now about my life and its experience, I would call it, "Life in a Minor Key, with Major Accidentals." Kinda of an oxymoron, I know but it describes my mood for the last couple of months. I have been through some major transitions since about August of last year. I have ended a relationship, lost a job, gotten a new job, involved in a car accident(rear ended by a hit and run), gotten a new car, blessed with a new niece Lyric Simone Gumes (Chunky Monkey), been called to serve my Country in Iraq, started down the road to purchasing a house, and met some really great individuals. This may be a long blog but bare with me as I attempt to express all of these "minor accidentals" that are within.






Would I change anything that I have recently been through? As I ponder long and hard, my final answer is HELL NO. Every trial and tribulation that I have recently been through, has not only made me a stronger person, but it has also given me a new appreciation and outlook on life. Probably the most life changing event for me is the birth of my niece. The only thing that could top that is having a child of my own. Although Lyric is not mine directly, the Lord has blessed us all with her presence. There is not now or ever will be nothing that I will not do in my power for this little lady or her parents. To follow, would be my calling to serve my country.






I knew that when signing up for the military, going to war was a possibility, but hey we do what we need to. What made this event so life changing was for the simple reason that I realized that at that point in time, more so than before, who everyone was in my life and what they mean for me. I may have only been blessed with one biological sibling, My big sis, Mikkie, LOVE YA, but God gave me 4 brothers and a brother in law and a few others, who love me just as much as my blood sister. We may not have the same blood that I have with my sister, but the bond there is just as strong. Shamekia, Gregory, Brian, Brandon, T.J., Lyndsay, Raven and Kendall, I LOVE YOU ALL. I know that if I was to ever need anything, I could call on you guys and there would be no hesitation. You all have listened to me bitch and moan and that right there is enough to make you say, THANK YOU!!!! And most importantly, MI MADRE, my rock and my comforter. The easiest way to describe her without sitting here for hours is simple she is the one who helped to make me into a STRONG AND INDEPENDENT MAN. For without her, there is no MOI (french for me, multi lingual, LOL). I know that this next year is going to be hard on all of us, but when I get back home, what a joyous day it will be. You all have been my rocks and I hope that I am yours. Let us all continue to lean on each other and be strong as one. I am soooooo very proud of all of you. I could go on and on, but I won't, LOL. To summ it all up, you all are stuck with me and I wouldn't have it any other way.


I am signing off for now, because its starting to get a lil emotional and i need to take a shower. I'll be back a lot more than before to give you updates as well as pics while I am overseas.


As always be real and remember.....


"There is a difference between knowing the path and walking the path............"


ONE LOVE