New beginnings

Lets go. It is now time to start a new chapter in my life. Relationships have ended and new ones are beginning and old relationships are starting again. So often we attempt to hold on to the very things that God himself is trying to pull us apart from. I have learned that to Love is hard, but to let go of loving someone is even harder. But once you learn to let go, you will realize that just because are not in a relationship together, does not mean that you cannot be friends. Always remember to cherish the good times, learn from the bad, and cherish the friendships that are to come. I learned a lot from you and I hope that you have learned a lot from Me. but the most important lessons that I have learned are, YOU CAN'T MAKE SOMEONE LOVE YOU, BE YOURSELF, TRUST AND HAVE FAITH, LEARN FROM THE PAST SO THAT YOU DO NOT REPEAT IT, AND CHERISH THE TIME YOU HAVE REMEMBERING THAT IT IS A PRESENT FROM GOD. All things heal and mend with time, but we must be careful not to block the things that come into our life or make those yet to come suffer for the mistakes of others. It may hurt to love again, but you owe it to yourself and future encounters to give it a try. And from this moment forth, I am going to give LOVE a try and not be afraid. LIVE LIFE AND ENJOY THOSE AROUND YOU.

LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER,
YELLABOY

Here Goes............

As I sit here in the bedroom listening to Kirk Whalum play the hell out of this saxaphone, I can't help but to place my thoughts into words. The title of the song that I am listening to is "Afterthoughts." All I can say is wow. This song is speaking to me in so many ways that I can't even start to describe. It as if he and I are sitting down and having a converstion about life. My life to be more exact. Right now I want to be held so close that words can't even describe. I have someone in my life that can hold me and I know that they love me more than words can ever show. Well its just that sometimes its nice to hear it. This special someone knows who they are so there is no need to call names. I want to tell them, but right know they are fighting an internal battle and I don't want to seem selfish by asking for some quality time. I have agreed to be understanding and let them work through the internal struggles alone, but I have always been one that takes pleasure in making others happy and it is killing me inside to know that right now the best thing that I can do is remain silent and stand in the back. Just so long as you know that I am there to catch you and hold you when you need me. I love you more than words can ever show or tell and because you are hurting, I am falling apart. As I am typing, my eyes are overflowing with tears. How I long for you to kiss me and hold me tight. Whenever I was feeling depressed and nothing could go right, it was the comfort of your touch that helped me through my rough time. Just the mere thought of coming home and knowing that you were there was so reassuring that my life was going to be alright. What is driving me crazy the most is knowing or thinking that my words don't do the same for you. Baby, I love you and nothing can ever change that. I want you to know that not doing nothing is killing me, but in honoring your request I am doing that. I have never fallen for anyone the way that I have fallen for you and baby, it feels so good. God brought us together for a reason and I realize that the road will be rocky but anything that is worth something, you are going to struggle for it. Baby I am struggling and I am fighting because you are the one thing that I will fight for. You have done so much for me and I hope that I have done the same for you. You taught me what it is to love, you restored my faith in love, when I had lost it. You are the best thing that I have found outside of my mother and sister. You completed me when I was incomplete. Everything about you touches my soul. Your talk, walk, style, charisma, and other things.... are all that I need to make it. Not to mention all that I want. I could go on and on about what it is that you do for me, all I hope is that I can be to you, what you have been to me. You are my rock, MY ONE AND MY ONLY. Let me close this out for the evening before I start balling again, but let me leave you with this.....FOR YOU I AM TRULY AND EXTREMELY GRATEFUL. I LOVE YOU FROM THE DEPTHS OF MY SOUL.